Thank the Lord I am feeling much much better today and able to be with my sweetie!  God knew we both needed that and I know many of you were praying to that end, so thank you!  Josiah is ready to be home but is strong.  For him to admit that this is hard means it’s really hard.  I know going home will do him good.  His room is stuffy and he longs for fresh air, so we take lots of walks trying to find places that he can feel the cool breeze outside.  We learned yesterday that his chemo won’t be done until late Saturday night, so we won’t be going home until Sunday sometime.  Saturday is his baby sister’s graduation and it is hurting him to not be able to be there.  I think he was focusing on being able to make it to her party for little while as a goal…so that’s been an adjustment for him.  We love you Bethany!  I am just praying that God would give me wisdom in how to encourage Josiah and be the help-meet that he needs.  God is faithful and He answers prayer and is using His Word to bring encouragement and strength.  Oh, and for all of you praying for Lincoln, he slept much better last night PTL!  Thank you for praying for the “little” things too 🙂

Here we are on day 3 of chemo.  Josiah’s side effects are worse today.  He is very tired, but he is forcing himself to go on walks.  All the medications for side effects have side effects too, so they are continuing to find what works best for him.  He is still so sweet and tough and strong and wanting to make sure I am OK.  I love him so much and I am amazed by him and how hard he is willing to fight…and I know he is fighting for me and the kids.  I can’t even put into words what that is like to watch…and we are only at the beginning of this.

Lincoln and I are not with him today.  I woke up not feeling very good, so I am keeping my germs away and trying to get better as quick as I can so that I can be there with him.  I know as awful as it is being away from him, it’s the best thing I can do for him right now.  Thankfully, I was able to get a room in the Rossi House (a small hotel in the hospital for families with patients) today, so I don’t feel so far away.  He is well taken care of and I’m thankful for that too.  But I ache for him.  My heart bleeds for him.  Lincoln is teething and not sleeping well.  I am feeling…weary, stretched, restless.  But I know where my hope and my strength comes from.  I know His mercies are new EVERY morning.  I know that He will never leave us or forsake us.  I KNOW He loves us with an everlasting love…and to top that off, underneath are His everlasting arms.  I KNOW as we pass through deep waters, He is with us.  And those precious promises are what will see us through.