Month: June 2009

Birthday girl

/ heartmomma / 5 Comments

We celebrated my birthday yesterday.  I was praying for two things for my birthday, 1) that I would have my husband back (mentally), and 2) that I would have no reason to feel sorry for myself.  Both prayers were answered.  Josiah was much more clear thinking than he has been and I felt so loved and blessed all day!

I began the day with a gift from lil Lincoln…something warm and stinky and squishy 🙂DSC08544 But it got better from there.  The day before my birthday, Ava made me a card and when she gave it to me she couldn’t remember what to say so she said “Happdy Mudder’s Day!”…but she had the “Happdy Birfday Mom!” down pat on my birthday.  She was so sweet and cute and excited about it all!  My lovely and wonderful husband surprised me with a beautiful necklace.DSC08556 I love it!  We usually don’t give each other “big” gifts, just a card and something small.  This is extra special to me because he bought it quite a while ago (before treatment) and it replaces the cheap heart necklace I bought on my birthday three years ago.  When Ava was on life-support three years ago, I got it into my head that I wanted a heart to wear around my neck for a number of different reasons.  I wanted it around my neck always so I would remember certain things that God was teaching me.  So, on my birthday, Josiah took me to the mall and I found one for $8, and I have worn it ever since.  Now I have an upgrade 🙂 and it means even more to me.  I gave my old one to Ava to wear…it seemed like the poetic thing to do 🙂DSC08555

Anyway, I just want to thank everyone who helped in making my birthday so great!   It reminded me of the birthday I spent with Ava in the hospital (3 years ago)….not what I might have planned but God used the day to bless my heart.  Thank you for all the cards, and gifts, and notes, and flowers,DSC08551 and yummy food (I think ya’ll are trying to make me fat!), and gift cards (I got 2 from Starbucks…do you guys know me or what?).  I got to spend most of the day home with my little family at home (PTL!), with just a little outing to get Josiah’s blood counts (they look good BTW), and some great time at my parents house too, I also got a nap and (thanks to my wonderful Mom) I got my favorite dessert!DSC08547 Overall a great day!

Josiah’s head gets a little clearer every day…now we are just praying that as his blood counts drop he can stay healthy and home!

home again

/ heartmomma / 4 Comments

We just got home about an hour ago.  We are both very glad to be home and can’t wait to see the munchkins!  Josiah started feeling more effects from the chemo late yesterday.  He’s pretty groggy right now and not thinking very clearly.  His counts will hit their low point probably on Friday…please pray that he can remain healthy and home this time around.  I’m also going to ask that you would pray that I would remain healthy and have the strength and patience I need for each day (and night).  It’s sooooo good to be home, but it also means I don’t have full time staff (both nursing and custodial)….now I know that there is a loooong line of people ready to jump in when I say the word (and I’m not afraid to do that), but there is a lot that I need to do as well.  Don’t get me wrong, I am totally willing to do it and I am able to do it with the strength that God gives me.  I’ve just found that my stress level is so high that the smallest thing can just put me over the edge.  I just need to learn how to deal with it…and I need to learn to let God use this to teach me endurance and patience (James 1:2-3).  Also, my prayer has been from the beginning of all this that not only would God get me through this, but that He would get me through it with a song in my heart.  Let me tell you that God is very faithful in answering that prayer…but I need to be still before Him and listen and He will bring a song to my mind to encourage me.  Sometimes it’s when I’m listening to the radio or sometimes He just reminds me of one that I already know.  I just need to be faithful in asking.  So…I’m bringing this request to you so that in the times when I am not asking for God to fill my mind, then I can be assured that someone else is.  Thank you to all of you that I know are faithfully praying for us.  You have no idea how encouraging that is.