Month: September 2009

Our week

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Here’s a recap of last week:

This past week was supposed to be pretty free with not a lot scheduled…I’m not sure how that changed, but it sure did.  The week started with Lincoln not feeling well.  He had a fever from Sunday to Tuesday and then he developed a rash.  He is also teething again and having his typical skin issues so, he was pretty grouchy and cuddly.  The cuddly part I enjoyed immensely 🙂  Anyway, I had already scheduled his 9-month appointment on Thursday so when I took him there I asked about his fever and rash.  All you experienced mom’s know exactly what I’m talking about…yep, Roseola is what the doctor guessed he had.    So, while I was at the doctor I had them test him for some food allergies that I have been wondering about.  Hopefully, I will get those results this week.

Friday morning we dropped the kids off at my in-laws and then drove to Tru’s funeral service.  My heart hurts so much for Tru’s family and I continue to pray for God’s comfort and peace to surround them.  Of course, every “Heart family” in that room knows it could just as easily be their child.  When I got home that night, I held my babies just a little bit tighter and thanked God for the treasures that He has given me.

Josiah had a doctor’s appointment that afternoon, so after the funeral we headed home to change and grab a bite to eat and then drove to Iowa City.  It had been about a month and half since we had been there and we had a good meeting.  Well…good and difficult at the same time.  I keep thinking I’ll get used to these meetings, but every time it’s like getting punched in the gut over and over.  We are so very thankful for the doctor God has led us to.  In the past three and a half years we have crossed paths with many doctors and most are very knowledgeable about their job, but very few treat you like they really care and make you feel like they are being 100% honest with you.  Dr. Mo (that’s his nickname) is one of those doctors and we appreciate the time he takes to answer our many questions.  And his nurse Wendee, is one of a kind.  We love her!  (that’s your shout-out if you still read this!)

Anyway, it was a long, emotional day.  We got home late and crashed.  The next morning, I was up early and headed to our church to help with a ministry called Wee Ones.  It was my first year helping and I was so blessed by the experience.  Hundreds of disadvantaged mom’s (and dad’s, and grandma’s, and lots of kids too!) came through the doors and received the Good News of Jesus Christ and bags and boxes full of clothes and items that they need to care for their children.  My heart was touched by these women who are so precious in God’s sight.  Several accepted Christ as their Savior which we rejoice in!  I was so drained when I got home, but so thankful for the blessings that God has poured down on me.

I won’t go into everything else that went on around here during the week (i.e.  celebrating my in-laws 30th anniversary, car shopping, 3-yr old drama, etc…).  We continue to have hard days and good days.  We continue to pray for God’s leading as we travel the winding and confusing road called cancer.  We continue to thank God for each one of you that is such a blessing to us!

Rejoicing day by day.

Tru

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Thank you to all who were praying for our little friend Tru.  She passed from this life and into the loving and faithful arms of Jesus yesterday afternoon.  I rejoice that she has a new body with a perfect heart and will never experience pain again.  But my heart is so heavy and hurting for her sweet mother and father and brother and all those who loved her so dearly.  I pray for God’s peace to guard their hearts.

There are so many things in this life that I do not understand.  I do not understand why a three-year-old little girl dies because of a heart problem.  I don’t understand why my daughter’s life was spared when so many are not.  I do not understand why people have babies and literally throw them away when there are other’s who long to have a child and can’t.  I do not understand why a 26 yr old father of 2 is diagnosed with terminal cancer.  I do not understand why kids are sexually abused.  I do not understand why lovely and wise ladies get Alzheimer’s and forget who their children are, who their spouse is, and even themselves.  I do not understand “why” these things happen the way they do.  I do know that they will not stop happening until Christ comes back because there will always be sin in the world and therefore there will always be death (Romans 6:23).  I do believe with all my heart that when I get to heaven, and finally see things how Christ sees them, that it will all make sense.  And I also believe that it will no longer matter because we will be with Christ and He will be the ONLY thing that matters.  God knows our griefs.  He knows our hurts.  He hurts and grieves with us….for us (Romans 8:26).  He also knows the heart of man (Jeremiah 17:9) and that we had sin in our hearts from the moment we were conceived (Romans 3:23).  None of us are better than the other.  We are all lost in our sins.  We needed a Savior.  And God, in His wonderful grace and mercy provided that Savior who came to earth as a baby, died on the cross as our substitute and rose again to be our living Savior!  Not because we asked Him to.  Not because we loved Him so much (1 John 4:10) and not because we did so many good things to deserve it….but because He loved us (John 3:16).  What an amazing gift (Ephesians 2:8-9)!  So even though there will always be terrible, sorrowful, unspeakable things that happen in this world, those who know Christ as their Savior can have hope that this is not the end.  We will be with Christ someday where all things on this earth will pass away and the peace of God will truly reign in our hearts.  And until then, we also have the promise that He will never leave us (Deuteronomy 31:6) and will always be with us (Isaiah 43:2).  Amazing.