“I’m standing on the seashore.  A ship at my side spreads his white sails to the morning breeze and starts for the blue ocean.  He’s an object of beauty and strength and I stand and watch him until, at length, he hangs like a speck of white cloud just where the sea and the sky come down to mingle with each other.  And then I hear someone at my side saying, “There, he’s gone.”

Gone where?  Gone from my sight, that is all.  He is just as large in mast and hull and spar as he was when he left my side.  And just as able to bear his load of living freight to the place of destination.  His diminished size is in me, not in him.

And just at the moment when someone at my side says, “There, he is gone” there are other eyes watching him coming, and there are other voices ready to take up the glad shout, “Here he comes!”

Josiah took his last breath here on earth at 10:00pm and took his first real breath in Heaven.  He is finally Home.  His day of no more fear, no more pain, no more tears…was today.  He is safe in the arms of Jesus.

Josiah took a turn for the worse last night.  I think his body is just wearing out.  We dialed back on his pain meds a little yesterday so his mind is clearer…I’m so thankful for that.  He has pretty much been asleep since midnight…he seems peaceful.  I am trying hard to make wise decisions in keeping him comfortable.  That is my main goal right now.  It’s proving to be a hard adjustment to make decisions without discussing it with Josiah first.  We have always been each other’s sounding boards and we trust each other’s judgment so much.  I am missing that already.  He continues to be so precious and tells me he loves me in all his awake moments.  He still has his sense of humor…he proved that earlier today.  He can make me laugh like no one else can…I miss that too.

God continues to give me peace…even in the midst of my heartbreak.  Josiah is ready to go Home…and as much as I can be…I am ready for him to go too.  God’s grace is sufficient for me (2 Corinthians 12:9)…not too much grace, not too little…just enough.  That promise is precious to me today.