Yesterday, we took our first walk of 2010!
It included poking things with a stick:
and chasing some ducks:
and finding ways to test out our rubber boots:
and a certain little girl tripped and skinned up her hands (no picture),
and a certain little boy just took it all in:
and bikes were ridden:
We had a lovely time welcoming Spring!
Abandoned.
Misplaced.
Insecure.
Overwhelmed.
Lonely.
These are just a few feelings that can come on me suddenly and often, it seems, without a valid reason. But that last one…loneliness…is present a lot. It’s not because I don’t have people around me…I’m just lonely for him…and no one else can fill that place. But there are times when I just feel…alone. For instance, the other night while I was driving home, I was crying out to God and telling Him that I felt so completely alone. He spoke to my heart and said “Jess, you know nothing about being alone”. I felt rebuked, but also encouraged. My God PROMISES that He will NEVER leave me nor forsake me (Hebrews 13:5)…so He’s right, I can never know what it truly feels like to be alone because He is always there. Am I lonely? Yes, of course I am and God knows that…but am I alone…absolutely not!
Recently, I read in my devotions Colossians 2:10 – “and you are COMPLETE in Him, who is the head of all principality and power”. Such balm to my soul…but it’s something I have to remind myself of because I don’t feel complete…in fact I feel quite the opposite. But living out my faith means I will stand on that promise and I will claim it as mine and I will choose to believe it.
That’s what God has been up to in my heart. I am not alone…and I am complete in Him.
Beautiful Things 