I’m finding it hard to find words that describe yesterday.  If I said that last year was my worst Easter (and it was)…is it weird to say that this year was my best?  Or at least most meaningful.  Of course I missed Josiah next to me at church…or seeing him playing his guitar on stage…or getting the kids and myself gussied up and seeing his reaction…I can’t even describe what it feels like to miss him.  But oh, the joy that completely flooded my heart yesterday as I sang my little heart out about the hope that I have in my risen Savior.  Absolutely knowing that my husband was doing the same thing…except his worship was perfect and in person.  And because of that, I didn’t feel so far away from Josiah, in fact I never feel so close to him as when I am worshiping in song…I love that!

I have always been thankful that Christ did not stay dead…but this year…wow!  It’s EVERYTHING to me.  Christ conquered death that day and that has never meant so much to me as it did this year.  And one day, I will rise when He calls my name and there will be no more sorrow and no more pain and I will hear the angels sing…and I will worship at the feet of my Savior who has given me life and breath and hope.  GLORIOUS day!

As part of our church service yesterday, a man, that God used Josiah’s life and death to show him that he needed to bow his knee to Christ, gave his testimony and was baptised (you can listen to it on-line, just click here…I highly recommend it).  He was actually our funeral director, how crazy is that?  It was somewhat painful to hear, but mostly it rejoiced my heart greatly.  I’m so thankful for the life that my husband lived…and that I got to be such a part of it for over five years.  An incredible blessing.  I’m also thankful for an amazing God who works in hearts and minds around us whether we know it or not.  His plan is so much bigger than us…and yet, He chooses to use us.  Wow!  I’m humbled and amazed at the thought.  What a mighty God we serve!  And He LIVES!