At our house, only God is “awesome“…and oh man, is He ever!  I just had to start this post by saying that.  He has shown Himself to me in so many ways today and my heart is so thankful.  Today marks 3 months since Josiah went to heaven.  Like I’ve said before, I try not to keep too close track of anniversaries…but this one is hard to miss.  Lincoln was born on the 3rd (of December) so it also marks another month older for him…another month without his Daddy…another month that Josiah has enjoyed Paradise…another month that the Lord’s grace has brought us through.  3 months.  It seems like a lot for some reason and I think it was weighing heavier on my heart than I thought because God humbled me with all His blessings today.  I had a funeral to attend this morning for a dear woman from my church who died after a long hard battle with cancer.  She leaves behind a husband and a 5-yr-old son.  My heart was so tender for them.  But no sooner had I walked through the door of the church this morning, when people started coming up to ME, hugging ME, and saying they were praying for ME today.  I was so humbled and moved by that.  God used them to show me His love.  Then, during the memorial service, Pastor shared a story of how this woman reached out to Josiah after he was diagnosed with cancer just a year ago.  She had been through the trenches already and she was anxious to encourage him….us.  I did not know Pastor was going to share that story and I almost lost it…but then I was thankful to hear about my husband.  His memory lives on.  I also had to chuckle later when I thought about how Josiah and I used to joke about how many Sunday’s in a row his name was mentioned in a sermon.  He never sought that attention.  Both of us are, by nature, quiet people.  We lived a simple, quiet life and were content with that.  God had other plans.

Anyway, God showed Himself in other ways today also…I saw Him in sweet moments with my children, in Him allowing me time to rest (I’m still not 100% recovered from the flu last week, although I was able to attend church on Sunday), flowers sent by some dear family, hugs, encouragement, time spent outside, news of an answered prayer….it was a grace filled day.  Of course I had moments that were heavy with loneliness for my beloved…but it’s the joy that’s mixed in that makes it bearable.  I know there were many that were praying for me today…thank you.  They make a difference.  I am blessed.

I have good reason for my absence this time.  I caught a lovely…ahem…stomuch bug last week and am still not 100%.  The kids seem fine so far and I am VERY thankful for that.  I missed my “nurse” this week.  Josiah was always so gentle and considerate when I was sick (well, all the time really).  I was so blessed by how much my husband loved me!  But I am continually thankful for those around me who care for me and check up on me…you all don’t know how much that means to me.

My other excuse for not blogging is I was on a little road trip to the fantastic land of IKEA!  I love that store.  And my aunt and uncle live conveniently nearby (in Minnesota), so my mom, brothers, cousin, me, and the kids stayed with them for a couple of days.  It was really fun and I’m excited about the new things I found for our house.  I’m feeling a great need to organize and declutter…to make our house into a comfortable and relaxing home.  Stuff is just stuff after all.

I’m hoping to get some good rest tonight so I’m feeling well enough to go to church tomorrow.  But if I can’t make it, I know God will meet me where I am.  I can so easily lose my focus on Him and my dependency on His leading.  He is all that I need.