July | 2010 | Beautiful Things

Actually, we’ve been home since Saturday afternoon but we hit the ground running and today has been our first day just chillin’ at home. We had a fun time on our vacation. The kids had a blast playing with their “cousins”, digging in the sand, going on boat rides, learning how to fish, and being filthy all week 🙂 I enjoyed making memories with them…but as with everything these days, it was all bitter/sweet. Honestly, the week was harder than I anticipated…but I don’t regret going. We went to be with family and make memories with them and we accomplished that. There wasn’t anything that we did that Josiah wasn’t missed for. Sometimes his absence felt suffocating. This was not a “get away”…there is no getting away from grief. It’s like a constant fog and I take it with me everywhere. I told my sister-in-law this week that whenever I’m having a good time I feel like I’m outside myself just watching. Like it’s not really me laughing and having fun. I guess I have to re-learn how to do that too. Thank you for your prayers…they were much appreciated. I may write more about our trip later, but for now I have a house and laundry to catch up on and kids to cuddle and bills to pay…so, I’ll leave you with some of my favorite pictures from the week.