I’ve been struggling to know what to write lately.  In fact, I have about 4 unfinished posts that I haven’t felt like I should publish.  Questions fill my mind: what do I want this blog to look like?  What is my purpose in writing?  Is it good for me?  Is it profitable for others?  Is this the best use of my time?  I do not want to be redundant.  I do not want to be depressing.  I want to be real.  I want to be truthful.  I don’t want to make it seem like it’s “all about me” (even to myself).  I don’t want to make it appear that I have it all together.  I don’t want to sound like I have no hope.  I don’t want to make this look easy.  I don’t want this to be the only way I communicate.  I want there to be purpose in my writing.  I want my heart to be uplifted and hopefully yours too.  I am not looking for adoration or conformation.  I am not looking to be pitied or patronized.  I want to heal.  I want to grow. I want to learn.  I want what I share here to be absolutely true in my own life and something I have no problems saying to anyone because it is truly what is coming from my heart.

When Josiah was here, I almost always would share with him first before I published anything on this blog.  I had a defined purpose in writing…and we talked about that often as well.  When he was so sick and I had no one I could talk to…not even him…I came here.  I am finding that writing it out isn’t always the best thing for me now.  I need a real ear and some real truth-filled feedback (not that I don’t get that here…but sometimes I need to hear it face-to-face).  And you know what?  God is being faithful to supply that need by providing wonderful, godly women in my life.  I am so grateful for that.

So, please bear with me as I figure this out.  I know God will provide the answers when I need them.

“And my God shall supply all your needs according to His riches in gory by Christ Jesus”  Philippians 4:19