The kids and I went to the park this evening before supper. I was feeling tired and was lacking any motivation and the kids were full to overflowing with energy so I knew I needed to make a plan. I’m usually fine, but evenings can be difficult on random days. It’s a time when families come together…and well, ours is together ALL the time so nothing much changes at night. Sometimes that fact can make me in need of something different. Tonight…it was the park (with a quick little trip to starbucks on the way for a pick-me-up for mommy). It was a beautiful evening and we had such fun together. There were lots of Daddies at the park but I tried not to let that hurt get in the way of our time together. When we got in the car to go home I suddenly felt the urge to go to Josiah’s grave…so we did. The kids always make their own fun there and tonight was no exception. There is plenty of space to run and play and as much as it hurts, I love that they are ridiculously comfortable there because it is our normal. I also love how God always meets me in a special way there. Even though I didn’t verbalize a prayer…my heart was hurting and needing some kind of comfort. And my God did not fail me tonight. I’m not one to really look for “signs”, but when I looked over at the sunset tonight, I saw this:
I realize that this may seem silly to some and maybe a little far-fetched, but regardless of the method, God’s message hit the mark. I do not believe that seeing a heart-shaped cloud at that specific time was a coincidence. I do believe that God used that to tell me in a very unique way (don’t ya love that God is creative and unique?) that He loves me with an everlasting love and NOTHING can change that. And I love that He chose to show that to me in that place…my husband’s grave, a very real symbol of the human love that I no longer have. I am NEVER alone. I am His. He chose me. He will NEVER let me go. I am complete in Him. I am LOVED more than I can ever imagine. That is enough.
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Just precious…….I just stand amazed at how God shows us His love and how often I forget how much He loves me personally. Thank you sooooooo much for sharing this with us. Hugs and Prayers!
I love you for seeing HIs love in the clouds. Your heart is so open and you are listening to His voice, so He speaks to you. I am sorry your new normal is the kids playing at a gravesite, but I am so thankful you allow this to be normal. You are showing them how to handle loss and suffering, offering it all to the Lord and seeking Him for each breath you need to go on. Still praying for you, still weeping for you, still trusting the Lord’s Jeremiah 29:11 plan for your life.
That was really cool Jess. Thanks for sharing.
Jessica, your faith is such an inspiration! Because you reach out to Him, the Lord is showing you beauty and hope in a sunset. God bless you!
You have a special gift! We are studying Jeremiah in our Bible Study at my home. I concur the God does have an unimaginable for plan for your life as stated in Jeremiah 29:11!
Jess, when I looked at the picture, I kept looking at it to figure out what you saw before I continued reading. I actually saw two arms reaching around that heart-shaped cloud (more on the right side of the pic than the left)! What embracing love He has for you–for all of us! God answers our prayers in so many ways, but it really is cool when He allows it to be something visual and tangible. I don’t think it’s anywhere near silly or far-fetched because I’m always looking for Him in every moment–in people, in events, in songs, so why not especially in His creation?! He blessed you with that moment.
Much love,
Jen
Ah, Jess. I’m praying for you. I’m so glad that God gave you the blessing that you needed. He know every aspect of our hearts and I believe that sunset was just for you. Love you, my friend.
Jessica,
That is SO AWESOME! Thank you so much for sharing! Praying for you always.
Your FAITH in Him is amazing Jess! I love that God gives us everything we need. When we need it most… He is always there. So neat that you had your camera to capture such a special moment! Amazing how he tells us He will never flood the earth again with a rainbow… and shows you that He loves you more than anyone could ever love you with a heart shaped cloud!!!! I am touched beyond words. Love and Hugs are sent your way.