I could spend this entire post talking about my memories from last Easter.  I was an angry, stressed-out woman who had just learned 2 days before that her husband had cancer.  But…this day is so much bigger than my memories and grief…this day is the day that gives me hope, for my Savior LIVES! He is in Heaven waiting for me…loving me…molding me.  And I just want to PRAISE HIS NAME! Plus, this year, Josiah is celebrating like he never has before…at the feet of Jesus…what an incredible thought!

(Casting Crowns does a great rendition of this song…gives me goose bumps every time!)

Glorious Day

One day when Heaven was filled with His praises
One day when sin was as black as could be
Jesus came forth to be born of a virgin
Dwelt among men, my example is He
Word became flesh and the light shined among us
His glory revealed

Living, He loved me
Dying, He saved me
Buried, He carried my sins far away
Rising, He justified freely forever
One day He’s coming
Oh glorious day, oh glorious day

One day they led Him up Calvary’s mountain
One day they nailed Him to die on a tree
Suffering anguish, despised and rejected
Bearing our sins, my Redeemer is He
Hands that healed nations, stretched out on a tree
And took the nails for me

One day the grave could conceal Him no longer
One day the stone rolled away from the door
Then He arose, over death He had conquered
Now He’s ascended, my Lord evermore
Death could not hold Him, the grave could not keep Him
From rising again

One day the trumpet will sound for His coming
One day the skies with His glories will shine
Wonderful day, my Beloved One, bringing
My Savior, Jesus, is mine

Living, He loved me
Dying, He saved me
Buried, He carried my sins far away
Rising, He justified freely forever
One day He’s coming
Oh glorious day, oh glorious day

Glorious day indeed!  I can’t wait!

My Beloved has been in Glory for 2 months today.  Such a bitter/sweet thought.  I really try hard not to focus on all the “anniversary’s”…there are enough that just happen so I don’t need to go searching for them.  But I also want to remember what this time was really like and what God has done every step of the way.

So…compared to a month ago I:

• Miss him more.
• Feel more like myself.
• Discovering a little more every day what “works” for us.
• Learning so much about myself, my life, and my Father it’s CRAZY.
• Finding that widowhood is more about serving than being served, and being a single-parent is more about letting go then hanging on.
• Knowing that I already at least thought I learned these lessons, but I need to learn them all over again because I’m starting a brand new life.
• Striving to learn what it means to be the head of my house.
• Starting to be able to plan for my future better…and sometimes that just means tomorrow.
• Day-dream about heaven…a lot.

This is just a quick overview.  But I couldn’t let this day go by without marking it somehow.

God’s grace is enough.