My Beloved has been in Glory for 2 months today. Such a bitter/sweet thought. I really try hard not to focus on all the “anniversary’s”…there are enough that just happen so I don’t need to go searching for them. But I also want to remember what this time was really like and what God has done every step of the way.
So…compared to a month ago I:
- Miss him more.
- Feel more like myself.
- Discovering a little more every day what “works” for us.
- Learning so much about myself, my life, and my Father it’s CRAZY.
- Finding that widowhood is more about serving than being served, and being a single-parent is more about letting go then hanging on.
- Knowing that I already at least thought I learned these lessons, but I need to learn them all over again because I’m starting a brand new life.
- Striving to learn what it means to be the head of my house.
- Starting to be able to plan for my future better…and sometimes that just means tomorrow.
- Day-dream about heaven…a lot.
This is just a quick overview. But I couldn’t let this day go by without marking it somehow.
God’s grace is enough.
Beautiful Things 
The day-dreaming about Heaven hit home, I do that all the time!! I’ve been blessed to watch how God is working in your life through everything! Hope you have a blessed Resurrection Sunday!
Hey Jess
Two months…you’ve made it. I can’t imagine how hard it’s been. I know, as you say constantly, it’s only by God’s amazing grace that you’re not only managing but growing. I hope you all enjoyed the many wonderful aspects of the Easter season. There really is no other time of year that brings the range of emotions and thoughts that this week does. So much grief and sorrow that gives way to glorious freedom and redemption. He is triumphant and our hope is secure. Good news indeed.
Spring has definitely sprung and we’re enjoying being outside. You too? We had a good storm this evening so it’s back to mud boots tomorrow. 🙂
Love you all
Well said, Jessica.
I like how you said, “Finding that widowhood is more about serving than being served, and being a single-parent is more about letting go then hanging on.”
That is a truth I haven’t been able to put into words.
I often send out your posts to others young widowed moms. You are an encouragement to us all. Thank you again for sharing your heart and blessing us by putting all those tangled emotions into words.
Hugs,
Thank you for sharing with us over and over again. As we were worshiping Easter morning, I thought of you praising our God, knowing that your beloved was doing the same in heaven. What a mighty God we serve.
Joanna